Saturday night, I learned it’s okay to need somebody.
Monday night, I learned that I am my own person. I am an actual adult.
I learned that Nolan and I are a family. Our own kind of family.
A family that can have a fresh start to do whatever, be whoever we want to be. Set what the morals and skeletons of our love and everything that represents it will be.
And its such a beautiful thing to see.
Coming to peace with what has been. Moving forward knowing that we write our own stories. All of these actions, representing that so much energy, so much emotion has been released!
I have just cried through this awakening for nearly 30 minutes. Nolan was right by my side. He understood and knew what was happening. I didn’t need to explain. I don’t even know how to describe the beauty of allowing someone to become so close that they truly, deeply know you better than you know yourself.
Scary, so terrifying, but so worth it. He said “We are a family. We get to write the rules. ” This is us. This is a new chapter.
I admitted that I needed Nolan. I said it to him for the first time Saturday night. We’ve been together nearly 4 years. We’ve been through many a bumpy patch, but I need him. I have been so used to doing everything myself, only trusting myself to get what I need done, done. Only myself helping my fulfill my dreams. Only myself doing the work on an assigned job. I can do it. I don’t need anybody.
I do. I do need somebody. I have so many somebodies, and for that I am truly grateful.
I encourage you, if your holding on, holding back from somebody or something, to open up. Dig deep. Let the petals of your soul unfold and bloom.
<3 <3 <3