Libra season has arrived, bringing with it the inability to ignore many themes in my life that need attention.  These themes, the fluctuations of my consciousness are not allowing me to rest. In my reality, alongside every single one of us, there are many patterns I have created, that I’m just fed up with. Libra season brings balance.

I’ve caught myself in such an imbalance of where my attention goes, and so, my healthy habits fluctuate as well. I’ve caught myself not able to be at ease with my work life, family, physical health and my daily practice. This past month of Virgo season, I had an epiphany about the methods in which I dream. I thought I knew how to dream big…but Nolan and I got the chance to allow an outside perspective into our bubble, and we quickly realized how small we were allowing our dreams to be. We were literally dreaming within our current means, our current reality. What does that vibration attract? The same old shit.

I have caught myself over and over, complaining. When I am not rooted in my practice, when I don’t have that daily stillness to come back to, I am unable to remember how to be content. Then while mindlessly scrolling though instagram, I came across a post that was something along the lines of “Notice how when we speak, we mostly complain. Don’t forget to talk about the good things in life too.” Over the weekend, this kept being replayed in my mind. Did I stop complaining? No. But it brought my habit to my awareness. I caught myself every time, but I didn’t have the strength to prevent the words from leaving my mouth, or my mood going from “Happily baking pumpkin bread” to “Panicking on the kitchen floor”. Yeah.

Today is a fresh start for me, as is each breath we take. Once I was able to reflect on my actions, I realized that is not who I am and I am in control. This week will bring more positivity, even if I need to force it a little. I will practice yoga every damn day. I also am setting myself up for an Ayurvedic cleanse, to balance my Vata, or air/ether elements. I need to get grounded in reality, gratitude, and patience.

My daily practice includes a reading of the Yoga Sutras of Patanjali, as well as journaling or blogging whatever comes to mind that day. Vairagya is the lesson I read of today, and this translates to “not getting stirred up”. To find stillness within chaos. The translation of the Sutras by Chip Hartranft say;

“Vairagya is the willingness to let a phenomenon arise without reacting to it. In other words, one can allow any feature of consciousness-a thought, feeling or sensation-to play itself out in front of awareness without adding to it’s motion in any way. This subtracts more and more of the confusion from our experience, leading to profound stillness ad clarity.”

It’s funny how each time I read a Sutra, it is able to relate to exactly how I experienced my day. This is me attracting more of this awareness into my life. Speaking more of the good, and allowing the complaints to remain within myself, while also finding that balance of expressing my feelings, but in a more constructive way. Let’s try to avoid more kitchen-floor panicking yes? Good.

May I maintain a state of calm while being aware of the fluctuations around me.

May I remain strong and centered in yoga when frustrations arise.

May I attract more positivity into my life, knowing I get what I give.

May I give more good to this world.

Namaste everyone, and I will write again soon.

YogiSophie